Date: 5.21.2008
Time: 1:50 AM

I'm in a MESS.

makes me kinda miss bmt liao...

if bmt was jialat ans sispec was heaven, den me thks dat combat eng was hell...not dat i sarcastic or something, but the standards the commanders puttin in camp on JUZ the 1st dae may prove to bn a bit too much for some of us...

but speakin bout combat eng, i met a few lost souls, some of whom i tot will nvr c again...tot dat the prev encouter wid Johannan lst yr shd b the last time i c c him liao...but hell, not onli i saw2 him in sispec, i met him in nee soon camp!...talk bout considence!...if dats not nough, i got wei shen and SX (a fair combo, frm wad i c dis time...) in my sect!...woo, shd b a gd help to my cripplin condition in camp...

its darn obv frm wad the commanders show dat they r gonna accept 1st failures...who will expect ppl to b knocked down juz 3 hrs into the 1st dae in camp...and the whole company knocked down in 1/2 a dae?...and the shoutins...whoa, it kinda sounds like free here...but they sae dat the standards of discipline gonna b high...cos the lv of risk is astrological...spekain of which, dat SPOOKS me bad...gonna stick well to sgt jumain, my prev sec com's adv: b'in more confident of oneself...nd some effort to stop percivin myself as inferior...i gonna survive the 11-wk course and get dat dream SGT rank...even if may mean stayin in combat eng for 12 yrs...(sigh)...

but life as CPL quite better...for start, the bed dere lk so darn temptin for a slp sia...but muz tahan sia, no matter how soft the bed (god, feels like my lao pa'a bed sia...the kind dat sends ppl slpin in 3 min!) is, gonna finish some jobs...oh, food dere lks promisin also...we nvr got western meal and choc ice cream for wad seems like ages sia...and wad, hokkien noodles for lunch??...cool sia, thk the last time i had dat in camp was in tekong for breakfast and trust me: the quality is 'memorable'....

amid dis '1st dae' mess, i'm darn grateful dat the Co grants us a 3-dae leave in adv...dat adds up to 5-daes leave!...shiok lah, but dun c anythin productive comin though...the twists of fate seem so crazy...so confusin...maybe cos sispec quite welfare...well, still 1 wd to myself: tahan lor...!

SIGH