Date: 5.25.2008
Time: 12:13 AM

finally am makin an opp to relink wid the ppl i'm losin again =)...lookin towards to consolin the worries dat still rage on in me...the wry bout havin no uni acceptance till now...the wry bout the hard times worse den sispec, rite in nee soon camp (dat was a bad taste of it, i SWEAR)...the wry bout lack of confidence (as a reminder of wad my prev sec com told me...)...some of dos things i saw comin...i mean, my mind was realli uneasy and burdened at dis pt of time...so todae poses as a nice chance to have a bit of company which i haven been c'in for a long time (nearly a yr for some, i betcha...)...

got a niec present for party girl fitrah (though her b'dae was 2moro) wid lor mee...i promise, dat stuff was a useful one, anywhr can use 1...our courtesies, as always...lor mee and i was also helpin wid the setup of dat bbq party...like movin stuff (norm lor, feels like gd o' sai kang bk in camp...haha...), settin up of fire...whoa, speakin of which, dat was not as tough as i tot...puttin some charcoal, layin fire starters dat fared much worse den dos hexane fuel blks we have in army, puttin more charcoal, fannin smoke...but hell, when the fire starts in the end, it kinda feels satisfyin: lor mee, ed miral and i did managed to start dis fire for the 1st time altogether!...if u ask me, dat feels shiok...haha...

and yeah, dst fire cooks gd stuff...otak, satay, chix wing (i gonna b sick at the lk of even dat alone...cos i had been eatin chix wing like free in camp...)...same o' lot in a norm bbq...but i nve tot u can add ornage squash and rose syrup to make a gd-lookin version of fruit punch!...but, wid such simple recipes, u shdn't b expectin dat to taste 100% fruit punch, do u?...lol...

saw a few of my o' 4e1 mates, like b bong, evon (i certainly agree wid wad lor mee sae bout the handbag she brought wid her...muahaha), cheryl, azzizah and arron...but dats bout round dere...disappointin sia, was hoppin for a real 4e1 gatherin, but lks like a gd no is MIA, so onli like round 9 turned up for the bbq party...well, still, better den notin...i a happy guy to at least chat wid dese fellas...to c ed miral relieve the 'child' in him by goin on a swing was a joyful sight as well...and yeah, a gd amt of the mental burden prevailin in me gets well lifted as well...at least i dun feel as emo as i felt before leavin for dis thing...

wads the last time i truly smiled since the skit in bmt, realli?...i thrived in a period of ominously dark times...any reconnection wid my past will b more den needed to put my morale bk on gd track...or juz a new friend...(sigh)