Date:
4.19.2008
Time: 7:10 PM
while i'm still free, gonna express wad i call 'true worries'...bk in tekong, the tots of b'in a leader was far frm existant den...but somehow, when dos surveys come and force me to decide b'in a commander or a chiong sua warrior, i made the ob one; b'in the formal one la...no way i gonna spend most of my remainin time workin in the woods, thx so much...so dat gave me dis retry for IPPt shortly after the survey...thk u guys noe the rest...happy-go-lucky, promoted to whr i am so far out...
now dats whr the curr prob is; juz can't catch up!!...the ppl dere r definitely 1 lv higher, so much better den the ppl bk in bmt...they seem to noe everythin on the dot, everythin pass no prob...but me, the imcompetent fella...sigh, still havin prob meetin up to the standards of others...flunked sbj in the latest ippt, though i got so-darn-lucky in the chin-ups whr i got 9!...dat was so freakin sad lor, given the efforts i invested into chin-ups sia...without push-ups at all!...my sect com also now keepin an eye on me too, noein dat my standard is fairly below the rest...he also emphasises dat 1 prob dats been buggin me since i entered dis camp: 'u gonna b a commander some dae and u gonna b a gd role model to yr section's man...so u had better been actin like 1 as well...'...MAN, given the req standards of b'in a commander and the current state i am in now, i realli got dis doubt dat i can b dat role model for dese man i gonna lead in the future...sian diao lor, cos i still can't help myself frm salvagin dis current sit...
but on the bright side, 4 wks left to pop...and dat 1 CPL rank can b mine for the takin...haopefully, after 3 chiong suas in the forests, and numerous phy-knockouts, i can b better den wad i am for now...
and oh, i suddenly have aspirations to own a psp...i dun lk at its portable -gamin ability, but more strongly at its ability to play movie, view pix, listen to music all in 1 device...besides, lks more affordable and all it nds is juz 1 of my mthly pay...cool, but dat i will wait till pop is over den...